Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought I'd ever have to hand my baby to a surgeon and completely let go. My heart has never ached so bad. Chris snapped this picture minutes before I walked him down to the OR. Whispers of desperation. Nothing prepares you for this, nothing prepares you for what it does to you after. The pain etched so deep inside your soul. The sadness of the pain your baby has to endure. Yet, thankful God chose me to be his mother. That God saw me as his perfect fit.
