I'm Back

I took a 3 week break from the computer. Although it was forced on me as my laptop had to be sent away to be fixed it was a much needed break for my mind.
I had deleted my Facebook account the night before I boxed up my computer and for now I will be keeping it deactivated. I have a number of reasons that helped me make my choice. I ended up catching a program on CNN one night that scared the socks off my feet, about the Facebook connection addiction. I think one of the most humbling things for me was seeing how *me* focused I had become. For example " Miranda is ........................." insert what ever status; nobody comments maybe get a couple "likes" and I start to feel a wide range of emotions, from "oh maybe that was silly to straight nobody likes me". When I took a couple steps back and looked at it, that's really REALLY silly!

This also caused me to take a look at who my "friends" are. There is a verse in Proverbs that says The righteous should choose his friends carefully I can tell you out of the 250+ friends on my Facebook account I only truly have a relationship with maybe 4% of them.

And besides they learn to be idle, wandering about from house to house, and not only idle but also gossips and busybodies, saying things which they ought not" (Timothy 5:13)

This very verse makes me want to run and hide my face in shame. I am so very guilty. I had learned how to be idle, checking up, checking again and again. While I had lied to myself convincing my conscious that I was keeping community I have only produced weariness by knowing everything everyone else was doing. Yet I was guilty of rolling my eyes at "friends" status updates , the whole thing produced more and more weariness in me than Godly fruit.

"Our Internet-culture has created a social-networking world that effectively allows us – if we wish – to escape the Present by passing our moments onto it. And as C.S. Lewis asked, “Where, except in the present, can the Eternal be met?”

Another reason I have an almost 13 year old and I really don't want to see my children pulled into it so I had to make the step.

So maybe by coming out and humbly letting the world know Facebook causes me to fall into sin and gossip about those on my friends list is like sending myself to the slaughter. But I share this to say I need Jesus, this is the bad news of my flesh I am sinner and my crimes are against God. I can not earn righteousness or salvation through my good works or deeds of holiness. Only me coming to the cross yet again repenting and obeying receiving His blood on the doorpost of my soul and turning. A plucking of my eye of sorts, am I going to miss being in the know? you bet! I love to hear of pregnancy announcements and babies being born but the cost is not worth the judgment I will face at the end of idle words spoken.

During my 3 week break I read 3 books.

Womanly Dominion

Beautiful Girlhood

Heaven is For Real
Womanly Dominion was great very encouraging on your roles as a woman in the home.

We celebrated my Rachael's 4th Birthday and my 30th. I will have to post pictures in my coming posts.

P.S to those who worried my last blog was about them, please don't worry about anything like that, it was not about any person at all. :)