April showers bring May..... wait it is May!!! It has been raining for over 24 hours and my plans of being in the dirt quickly got replaced with a quiet afternoon of grilled cheese sandwiches, baby cuddles, throw blankets and movies. I'm coming to appreciate moments like this in life, there is great comfort in the small things and letting the "to-do" list go. Like standing at the sink washing bottles and pump equipment. My heart aches to nurse my baby, I long to have him comforted around my waist. Instead I remind myself to be thankful for the God given nutrition I am able to provide for his fighting little body. I choke back tears often that he is a tubie. (what us medical mama's call our feeding tube babies). And this is the very definition of family. To sacrifice - to give even when it's hard- to not take the easy road or the road that you 'feel' is best for you but best for your family. Putting one foot in front of another in the rhythm of our days - the simple joys. And by these actions, we lead the way for our little ones to keep on keeping on. Moving forward, perhaps changed, perhaps stronger, perhaps with more love to give. Isn't that the goal? Pouring love on all these people. We love because Christ first loved us.
With the last six months being absolutely heart wrenching I have been trying my best while at home to get my creative juices flowing again. To not get lost in the ache of a mothers heart... I have been having so many idea's floating around my head over the past few days. So I put the kettle on for tea and got out my notebook and began to write. Writing everything I would like to do over the next 6 months of crazy - the garden, the goat house, open learning with my kids.. you get the idea. So much to do so little time so once again I give myself the pep talk: Move slowly. Breath deeply. Be present. That is how I want these precious days of my life to be lived.
Make yourselves nests of pleasant thoughts, bright fancies faithful sayings; treasure-houses of precious and restful thoughts, which care cannot disturb nor poverty take away from you, houses built without hands for your souls to live in.
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I hope to remember to read this again this week... Thanks for your wisdom.
Love this post such a great reminder to slow down and relish in those simple quiet times. reckless abandon that to do list is so good for the soul sometimes and focus on what count. Inspired by your strength and wisdom! AND did you make Natalie's dress?!!! its so lovely! iv been looking for something like it for Faith. might have to pull out the old sewing machine.
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